Read the newspapers today. It is futile.. to ponder about life. All of us continue to seek meaning behind the purpose of our lives... It is not only a novel idea, but it makes life so much simpler for us, rather than understanding the complexities of 'how' and 'why'.
You can't be a conductor, a violinist, cellist, percussionist, singer, a doctor, priest, engineer, businessman, sportsman, politician, novelist... at any one time in life. Unless you're an actor.. but that's just play-acting, and not fulfilling the true job scope.
To be pragmatic, it is better to pick a few.
Life has its limits, you can't go on choosing a vocation forever... and that's why I've got to make a choice. Do I want to drift on through life my own way, or steer the ship by the wheel?
I've been staying away from the piano and the guitar. I ask myself why? At the same time, I asked myself if I wanted to perform in front of an audience... If I wanted take exams and raise my musical skills. But somehow, I don't know why I would want to do that. I'm unmotivated and lazy. No way!
But I love the music that I hear evey single day. It beckons me to try, to be just as good as the experienced players. I think it fulfills my other part of the soul and can play a role to the balance of energy.
I may even perform better at school, and be a happier person.
I wished that life was so much more. But do I have the guts to put myself to the challenge, and practise what I preach...?
That aside, I have decided to impress someone, to show that I'm not just a nobody, drifting through life. Yeah, as usual, I can't seem to swallow my pride.
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