Tuesday, April 10, 2007

feeling the anger.



http://www.mrbrownshow.com/?p=797

now I appreciate the greatness of e.g. Jesus and his teachings, as opposed to this recklessness perpetuation of our mundane, materialistic society. The rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer... etcetera. Familiarity. You can't say you feel good about the arresting facts. You can't even say you're in the comfort zone.. what about those below you? This Apathy, this subliminal fear we live in.

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Why I like Art films



Sankara

1. They are just different and outwardly expressive.
2. The films are often subtle in their meaning and can be interpreted in personal ways.
3. They offer valuable insights to mirror the dreary nature of everyday life.
4. They offer different fare for the jaded cynic of typical Hollywood movies, where cause and effect are very closely linked.
5. You don't feel bad about watching an Art movie, because it has changed you somewhat: it plays with all your emotions and subconciousness while the film rolls. If it doesn't it's not a great film, or that you chose one in which you weren't able to relate with..

I will be watching Sankara, the opening film from Sri Lanka, on the 18th April @ Lido. I'd like to see how a celibate deals with his awakened repressed lust; and what happens when he is no longer in control of the situation. For more information, visit: http://filmfest.org.sg . Tickets are very much sold out already.

Actually I'd like to watch Solos, the Singapore film. Just that I haven't found a companion for the event.. It's just so disturbing, and curiousity gets the better of you.




Solos


I watched The Return (2003/04) yesterday on DVD @ Temasek Poly Library. It was stated to be a psychological thriller - I admit I very much felt the suspense. But I also carried away from the movie, the anguish of the characters after being marvellously played out by those boys.



Vanya, "fishing in the thunderstorm"

(Spoilers below)

Vanya and Gerin are brothers that play together in their childhood in the cold, grey hinterlands of Russia. The film starts out by giving depth to the characters. Gerin being the elder brother, is adventurous and more mature than Vanya, the younger boy, who is afraid to trust and afraid of heights. Both boys start out on Sunday, and a series of events are set in motion, cumulating in their ultimate maturity at the end of the week.

On Monday, they run home to find that their typical Granny-Mama household has found the sleeping presence of a new man. Mama tells the children that both that their long-lost Papa of 12 years is back. This Mama does not smile, or display much joy at the prospect. Instead the atmosphere in the family is cold and grey as it has always been. In the stifling presence of Papa, the household is restored to patriachial command, as shown by Papa pouring wines/vodka for everyone in the family, and everyone waiting for his permission to start eating.

The next day, Papa brings the two boys out for a two-day fishing trip. The Papa, I believe, wants to mould his sons into grownup men. First of all, he drives the car quietly, without a word. As man of the house, he demands obedience and total respect from his boys. He expects Vanya to address him as Papa. He makes himself seem unreasonable to the boys, by inflicting violence on Gerin for disobedience or incompetence. Or like punishing Vanya for whining, by leaving him in a thunderstorm. The father appeared to be a nasty piece of work, although I believe his intentions had been good.. To train his sons to be strong and survive the hardships of the world.

Over the week, Vanya had doubts whether Papa was indeed their father and whether he was worthy to be so, while Gerin embraced Papa. They cross the sea, labouring at the oars to arrive at a deserted island. So after being abused again, Vanya prophesises to Gerin that, "If he touches me again, I'll swear I'll kill him." The next morning, he steals Papa's knife, and I'm kept in the suspense all this while - thinking about the father who must die.

In a violent and dramatic confronation between the boys and their father, the young Vanya shouts at Papa, "Why did you come back? You don't need us. We don't need you." A chase to the light-tower, the abused Gerin chases after the father that throttled him. Vanya threatens to kill himself by jumping down the tower. In the helplessness of the situation, we all know who died suddenly amidst all the chaos.

The boys were faced with independence, in the island on their own. A sudden change of mindset. Of necessity and self-responsibility. Gerin looked after his younger brother. We have to bury the dead. Some of the training that Papa taught them were put into good use. By Sunday, Papa had taught them a hell of a lesson, and led them part of the way to manhood. Savageness is necessary to forge a piece of iron, to put it into good use.




The director of the movie says he's keen to bring out Russian Mysticism in the film, which I believe is something that goes like "hardships strengthen people" with imagery like a sea crossing being a big voyage in life. I find that the Russian breed is indeed one of its kind, growing in a savage, cold and grey landscape throughout history.

Octopus

I feel like an octopus stretching out its tentacles in the murky depths. So far, I've been seeking nothing but pleasures to fill my life..

Does the octopus below look sinister? (Or ready to squirt a jet of ink and escape?)


(Picture used from rachelleb.com pending permission)

Octopuses can multi-task.. I can't. I am making a simple decision between piano and guitar learning. The trouble is - I can't take action. I can't find the time to learn before CMPB sends me the letter. I have this bag of excuses.. (ie. injured my wrist while rollerblading.. still damn pain when I bend it, need time to train physique, reading, etc.)

I am so preoccupied this month. I hardly have time to blog.


List of events for April:

5. AS (Biotech) Graduation (5/4)
6. Meet with Ching Mei's cell group to watch Passion 'X DVD (6/4)
13. Budak Pantai concert (13/4)
14. The Observatory's "A Far Cry From Here" album launch @ Zouk (14/4)
18. Sankara (opening film for international film festival) (18/4) [I also want to watch the Sg shorts!!]
21. April's 21st Birthday (21/4)

Thursday, March 29, 2007

a random moment

When I remininsce...
a flood of memories
immerse me in a false sense of reality.

HERE

Is this the real life, or is this just fantasy?

Monday, March 26, 2007

The Observatory


I got autographs!



"A Far Cry From Here" Album Front & Back

Vivian signed first, followed by Ray, Leslie, Evan, Dharma and Victor... Thanks guys for the wonderful evening..

Setlist was as follows (as best as I can recall):

Acid Pills
Olives
Fall of man (defining the concept of dehumanisation in everyday lives)
Wonderkind (inspired by the Gospel of Judas)
Downwards is hellwards (their feeling towards Globalisation ; surprisingly pleased by bassline and interplay between guitars)
The sink (Viv's recorder solo was a bit short.. however it made sense in the album arrangement, the musical line was introduced in an earlier song)
Enlightense
I didn't see her
Deadheat (tribute to their favourite band, This Heat)
When I see a fire (Victor's song.. showcases his expert bass skills. )
The last grand fallible plan (inspired by stayers and quitters.)

Encore:
My Whole Life
Sea of doubts

I find it quite funny that I usually find the OBS easy-listening simply because I turn down the volume a lot. Perhaps I get to hear all the good lines, and tone down the supporting ones. Live bands are always loud and hard on the ear. Today, I've learnt I'm not getting the fully desired sound experience.

The tiny recorder solo at the back of The sink was quite a hard fit for my tastes. Victor's expansive basslines moved the songs: Downwards is hellwards, and The last grand fallible plan. I'm still listening to the album now.

Nevertheless the songs on the 2nd album clicked with me well. I'm just fresh from a round of listen back @ home with the lyrics on the 3rd album.. It was difficult to decipher this batch of lyrics... Why weren't there lyrics for the 2nd album? It was soo good!

Anyway, got handshakes and autographs from members of the band. I wasn't able to interact long with them, for I was muted for the moment, and left with few words but in awe and respect.. They just signed on my copy of A Far Cry From Here.. They were larger than life, and it was great to receive their signatures. It was quite inspiring for me to meet them in person.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Working

Yes I've found work recently; I've been working for 3 weeks.

Interesting was this part-time job as a Banquet waiter @ Ritz Carlton Millenia, Singapore. It involves a lot of menial work. Especially for a guy. However, the pay is good.. 6 per hour. Heard it used to be 10??

But the perks! Besides having a free meal, I have served an event graced by President SR Nathan. It was the "Go Red For Women" campaign dinner. Big event huh? Thus I have witnessed walks of the business-life, demanding guests and so on.

I really envy those dining guests. Being served classy food and wines would really make me a happy man. Would you like a Chardonnay, Ma'am? How about the Cabarnet Sauvignon? Or the Merlott? Vintage wines... Must know the country of origin, and grape... Hard liquor.. Jack Daniel's Black, how would you like to be served? On the rocks. Oh sorry, cocktail hour's over...

I've decided to quit drinking Ice water @ Wedding Banquets. They come from the Tap! Even some guests request for Evians!
...

My half-day temp job at Balestier Primary school is that of a clerk. The Administration Manager had resigned, so I have to help the full-time data entry clerks do payment auditing, check edusave forms, photocopy, answer calls, and help Principal/VP type letters.

I realise that I quite like a half-day job, because I would be paid $22 each weekday. I think my Mum also does this, so it's probably in my genes (Lamarckism). Oh, did I mention I was turning away from science? Well, some of their concepts still hold interest for me. Just don't make me study any protein networks or biochemical systems, and I'll be fine! I reserve the right to change my mind though.

Anyway. The school environment is very cheerful. In the office, small issues are exaggerated in the faces or dramatised in the dialogue between the clerks, principals, school attendants, teachers, pupils, and parents.

It is quite funny to think that Primary school "pupils" become a term, instead of students. *Starts thinking about eye regional anatomy*
...

Tomorrow is the OBS concert.