Divided Opinion

An assimilation of information from 1) people offering their opinions, 2) interviews with friends.

People who tell me they don't believe - that's your problem! Now, don't try to sway my opinion.

I suppose, if I have a lot of friends that believe, I would tend to think I'm not alone. But thanks to YT, who says, "Don't follow the crowd, you'd know better than that...." (in referral to my regret at studying a Diploma in Biotechnology, because the Minister recommended it) And I relate it to the pastor who mentioned the whispers in the crowd, that were driven from the amazement of Jesus' miracles. The question is, whether YT is part of the crowd, that I choose not to listen to. Perhaps my brother and those advising me to consider carefully taking up Christianity as my religion are the whispers in the crowd.

YT, it's almost unnatural, but sometimes, I wonder if I feel a rush of love for what you are doing for me. No matter how remote or minute your actions are, I am at least 50% under your influence. And you can say I trust you, not merely because we're friends, but because what you've revealed to me recently regarding saving our planet and environment - makes a whole lot of sense to me - and I feel it's only right for us, as stewards, to contribute not to the destruction of our planet, but provide upkeep, and promote the awareness of the state of our planet.

Not just YT though. My friend's mom, she's advising me on her multi-religious Buddhist cocktail spanning the prophets of various religions - i.e. Jesus Christ, Prophet Mohammed, Siddharta Bodhivista (that Buddha guy), Confucious, Mother Guan Yin - all being messengers of the same God. And hence there is still only one GOD, and Unright of Christians to claim God - or the biblical scriptures, fragments of God's word - for themself. And she's taught me several aspects of being vegetarian. That we can expect a more peaceful death in the coming. That the prayers you devote yourself in worship, are not needed, and do little, by being vaguely mystical, too mysterious.


A Vandread philosophy brought out the thought that: God doesn't want anything of us, we've been created by God because he loves us, not for us to make sacrifices in the form of offerings. I reflected in reality: "not for us to devote too much time to worship him. But to spend time to bear fruit."

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The culture of Youth Impact - Youth for Christ - is sporting and fun. I've just been called to attend one of their activities, that might last 8 hours. Now, Come to think of someone who's just taking their break from a mounting week. I am seeking some time for solace. I can't do this. Right now, I just want to say, I can't do this. Succumb to peer pressure, I may, this time. I'm just hoping that someone who cares is listening. If God won't listen, if Jesus Christ won't listen, I hope someone does.

7 days on duty, putting my duty @ first priority, taking in criticism and scathing criticism - I'm sick and tired of doing what I have to do. I need some quality me time.

I want to absorb the good qualities of others, and banish my vices. And that's maybe why I go to church.