My Handphone is Lost

Why are Singaporeans so dishonest?
Are we witnessing the failure of the education system?

I am 'careless fool'. I am a victim. You have left me without a word, standing there. Pity me. Pity me. Think over what you have done! Wasn't it exceptionally cruel? But clever!

I know that there are 2 opportunistic bastards out there, grinning away at the prospect of making small fortune. Do not be tempted by unexpected gains! I see that you have left on the road to hell. Sometimes, in order to vent my anger, I curse you everyday; but I can't find my intended target; and within the walls of my room, they echo back, leaving me in a cruel state of my reflections.

No. My curses will never find you! Yet I sincerely hope that you will not sleep well for the rest of your days. I hope it poisons your mind as the loss of it poisons mine.

If anyone tries to sell you a Sony Ericsson T230 colorphone, or a Nokia 3315 (both Blue cover models)... Try asking the person about its origin.

And be careful on the MRT. Zip up all your bags.

Identity Crisis

Some people are just so nice in this world. I find myself drawn inward their social circle.

I hope I have found somewhere I belong. I really long to be part of their circle.

Surround your life with friends and every single day, lead a happy, carefree life...
Free from all worldly desires. (Maxims by Zhu Zi)

Yes. How tempting! Yet, who does not dream of that?

Time in solitude forced me to face my inner demons. I couldn't face them alone, and eventually, I became a pressure cooker. I had to look outwards.

They say Zhong Hao has that tortured look on his face.

For that, I smile at them, for speaking the truth. It has always been tough to maintain that facade.

They gave me very good feedback about my general behavior. It gave me good reason to learn more about them.

Being critical of myself: I have a deep fear of being insincere. I dislike being frivolous, thinking before I speak, lest I show my stupidity. I dislike being forced to do the things I dislike. I also have a short attention span.

Well, since I have identified my problems, I shall move on to solve them. Wish me good luck!

My Handphone is Lost

Please take note.

Why are people so dishonest these days?

I left my HP, a blue Sony Ericsson T230, on the upper deck of bus 196 heading for Clementi, after alighting around Suntec City.

My friend dialled my no. repeatedly and no one picked up the phone. Suddenly, his phone came to life, with my no. on it. He said he heard static, which meant the finder-keeper had left the bus.

Cynicism is getting the better of me.

Why am I so careless nowadays?

Maintaining my blog isn't one of my priorities anymore, and I write all too serious posts. I've been reading up Singapore's BEST BLOG! It's very amusing - I FEEL SO INFERIOR. =)

Enough with the negatives. I finished the Da Vinci Code. It was kind of boring halfway into the book. I thought I came across too many twists - I can't keep up with the pace. So all those events took place in the space of 2 days? Without sleep, nor food nor drink, those characters can combat fatigue and still remain so focused throughout the story! Meanwhile, I rub my eyes while they swam in tears across the pages.

I never expected Teabing, the Grail Historian to turn out to be the big bad guy. I am also curious about the true location of the holy grail. Is it really hidden beneath the Louvre Museum? It's a work of fiction. Right?

Here's additional food for thought:
http://arrrgh.redeaglespirit.com/archives/001099.html

Archangel.

As I read The Da Vinci Code, I can't help but think of another book.

Archangel by Robert Harris.

Fans of the Da Vinci Code, and History should read this. The latter was published in 1999. Its plot bears a stark resemblance - the old man died with his secrets, the academic trying to uncover them in time, with the police monitoring him closely.

Archangel is more deep, absorbing, and has a flowing storyline; In comparison, Da Vinci is very dynamic, with surprises at every corner. However the Da Vinci Code is very educational too - I had no idea what the Fibbonacci sequence? was prior to reading. Archangel makes a good candidate for History students interested about Russia during Stalin's rule.

Here's a gist of the book:
http://www.randomhouse.co.uk/features/harris/

I can't say Archangel is a better book than Da Vinci, because I'm not done with the latter yet.

Do not read.

I'm seeking a kindred spirit; (not the Chinese Drama 'Zhen Qing'!) or a friend that I could relate to in this world. Perhaps I should put an ad in the classifieds - 'FRIEND(s) WANTED'. One good friend is enough, but more ain't bad either.

About Friendster: Let me tell you straight, I'm not good at making friends, and if you want to be sore enemies for life, go ahead. I've tried my best - I'm not nice. U detest me; I detest you. Let's not speak to each other again, and be forever lost in the silence.

I can't type a testimonial for any of my new friends, because I don't suppose I know all of you well enough. And I guess the converse is true. I enjoy being a mysterious albeit disinteresting personality. I love being misunderstood.

I dare not provoke any more angry feelings. Avoid. Avoid. Avoid.

Image is very important, and so, I shall cancel my friendster acct. and bury myself in the shadows.

One good thing that came out of this:
I'm reading The Da Vinci Code, after coming across it in many friendster profiles.

Going for choir practise now.